Monday, September 23, 2013

Understanding Myself







1. cap: buy in Taiwan
2. top: Forever21
3. shorts: weekendwardrobe
4. boots: Dr. Martens

  經過了兩星期的上學,我發現自己真的有很多很多不足之處,有很多需要改善的地方!首先就是脾氣問題,平日的我脾氣很好,就像沒底線,但其實我的情緒起伏大得很!(當然,女生每個月有幾天心情是特別差) 我的脾氣很怪,上一秒可以很瘋狂,下一秒就可以靜到不得了,總之就是起伏很大,變幻無常,我也捉摸不了!有人說這是藝術家脾氣,其實...藝術家脾氣就是怪。

During this two weeks of my school life, I discovered my shortcomings! I do need to improve myself!
First of all, my temper. I'm a good temper person, normally, people may think I don't have bottom-line. (Of course, there are few days that girls always feel anger or no mood) My temper is so weird. I can be so crazy in this moment, but in the next minute, I can be so blue. Just so freaking weird, so freaking elusive. Some people say, THIS IS WHAT ARTISTS LOOK LIKE. The truth is, ARTISTS ARE STRANGE. 

  然後發現自己真的很喜歡管人,只要是我很喜歡的人,不管是朋友﹑家人﹑還是情人,我就是喜歡管,喜歡替人安排好一切,讓人走得舒服點,可惜就像沒人領情般(應該是覺得我多管閒事吧),很多時安排好了就不跟行程做事,其實這讓我很難受,然後我的怪脾氣就會爆出來~不過想一想,別人又不是我,他們的日子要如何過也是他們的選擇,要管的也應該只管自己。多管閒事一直以來都不是好的,就算出自真心,出於關懷,但在別人看中就是煩。而且連我自己就算安排好了也不一定會跟著做,更何況他人呢?所以啊~隨別人吧~少煩自己一點,多花點時間在自己身上更好呢~

And then, I found that I do like to manage somethings, even a person, but only the people I like or the people are important to me. I like to plan everything cuz I think good planning helps people walk easier. It's a pity that no one appreciate me (they may think I am so annoying). They will break the schedule, they won't follow my plan. And then my bad mood comes out haha. But you know what, it's really hurt me... However, they are no Erin, they have their rights to choose their life. You don't even follow your planning too, how can you control other? So, I shall only mind my own business, not other's. 

  其實自己還有很多地方需要改進,例如時間管理﹑金錢管理等等等等,最需要改的就是自己的惰性!因為懶惰,我不想去認真做任何事,包括改善自己... 我很明白懶惰帶來的壞處,而且作為一位時裝設計師就更不應該懶惰!可惜真的本性難移啊~剛開學的我還真的比較好,比較勤奮少少,其實是被逼要勤奮一點...但其實還是不足夠的!而且再過一段日子,我必定會懶起來!我不要這樣啊...如何才讓決心大於惰性啊?

Honesty, the thing that I must change is, INERTIA!!!!! I'm really a freaking lazy girl! I know! I know that lazy can kill myself! I can't be a lazy fashion designer! Because designer are hardworking! However, a leopard never changes his spots... I knew I'm a lazy girl when I was a little girl, but it's hard to change... I don't like this! I want some change! Teach me how to be a hardworking person!

最後...長大了...不能再依賴任何人,要接受孤獨。

Last and the most important, I can't rely on anyone, I need to try to be friend with Ms. Lonely.

stay safe, xoxo
Erin

Friday, September 20, 2013

New School Life

很久沒打blog了,這些子是新學期,有點忙~對不起了!說起新學期,現在我終於正式學時裝設計了!雖然剛開學就有功課要做,到第二個禮拜時,每天都有新功課,感覺很忙碌,但我很快樂!始終,現在所學的都是為了自己的夢想,都是有關時裝的,所以我還是很快樂!

Hello~ Long time no see! Just started my new life in my new school. Finally, I started learn things about fashion design! I don't need to learn anything that I hate anymore! Although I have so many homework to do, but I feel so happy cause I know that it's all about my dream and I'm getting closer to my dream now!
說一說新學校吧~其實也有一點點中學的感覺,因為我們都分好了班,一整天都只會對著同一群人,沒有大學那種每天都看見不同的同學,所以很容易認識新朋友。不過跟中學不一樣,老師們都不太管我們,一切都得靠自己,功課也不能遲交,不能隨便請假或不去上學,每科也有很多很多很多很多的功課要做,所以我們要自律一點,應該說是被逼著要自律和勤奮。不過這兩星期來我還是很快樂!學校很大,設備很多很好,老師都是好人而且愛玩,學校也有很多學會﹑校隊﹑組織去參與,感恩主替我選了一所好學校~

BTW, my new school is a bit like high school because we all separated to different classes so. It's totally different to collage cause it is easier to meet friends in my new school. However, there are things different to high school, in new school, we need to do everything by ourselves and no one gonna help us. I can't hand my homework late anymore and I must be punctual in every lesson! No More Late..... But I still very happy in this new school! Thanks God that helped me to select a very nice school!
大家還記得她嗎? 是的,她是Kasa!令我我最最最最最最最最最最感恩的﹑令我覺得自己最走運的,除了進了好學校,還可以跟自己的好朋友同一班,每一天我們都一起上課﹑下課﹑去玩,走到哪裡我們都是一起的!雖然三個月後再分班時,我們可能不會再同一班,但是說真的!因為有她,我才這樣開心!因為有她,我才可以做自己!因為有她,我才不怕認識錯的朋友!因為有她,我不怕上新的學校!因為有她,我不怕面對班裏的一些壞同學。(如果晶瑩也和我們一起,那就是最完美的事了.... ) 除此之外,我還因為有認識的人在籃球隊,我不用選拔也進了籃球隊,真的太走運了!我真的覺得啊~我這一輩子的運氣可能要用完了~以後的日子也應該不會再這麼的走運了啦~
其實我知道,我現在過得那麼的好都是因為主,我想......這一切的事都是主安排給我的吧!衪知道我擔心未來的日子,所以給我安排了這麼好的開始吧~那以後怎麼辦呢?最好的過了,就會走下坡...我還會怕啊~

Remember her? Yes, she is Kasa! Do you know why I will mention her in this blog? You know what, this two weeks in new school, I stay with her everyday! It's because we are in the same school and same class!!! We went anywhere together, had fun together! I feel very happy in my new school life because of her, mostly! I can be myself because of her. I didn't felt afraid because of her. I had confident to meet new friends because of her. I'm not afraid to face the bitches in class anymore because of her! I really think that I'm so lucky! Thank you Kasa :'( !!!!! Thanks God so much that I met her! BTW, I think I had used all my ''luck'' in this two weeks haha.
Actually, I knew it's all about God! He gave he these few greatest things! I guess.... he knew that I was very scared about my new school life, and that's why he planned a very nice starting for me~ Thank you so much, God. Please, stay with me everyday!

Anyway, I'll post a new blog very soon, so stay tune!

stay safe, xoxo
Erin